May 7th, 2012

Yep, still pregnant! Haha. I think it's true.

We swore we were going to wait until after the first trimester to announce it, and we haven't said anything on Facebook yet, but practically everyone knows. Your dad can hardly contain himself. I'm still in disbelief, so I just sort of announce it casually, mid-conversation, like I'm chatting about a new pair of shoes.

The other day, during Saturday night service for Liberty Offering at church, me, your Auntie Jen and Lindsay, Bekah and Katie D were standing in the hallway. In an effort to fill a silence, I announced to Katie and Bekah, "Hey, so, did you guys hear I'm pregnant?"

Shrieking ensued. They hadn't known, and watching their faces was the best thing ever. I may do that from here on out... no super suspenseful build-up, just a casual side conversation. And watch the jaws drop! Hahaha.

So, I'm sick. Not like, nauseous and can't eat sick (although, nothing sounds good right now), but "excruciating head cold but can't take any meds" sick, which might be worse. Dad's slept on the couch two nights in a row now, because I am such an avid nose blower. He doesn't get it. Last night, I stuck my face into a jar of Vick's vapor rub, just in the hopes of some quick relief.

I hate having a cold. There's nothing worse than the nagging agony of sinus pressure and a scratchy throat.

Although, labor is probably worse. I'll check back in 9 months.

Oh, and side note: went to the doctor last Wednesday - took a urine sample AND a blood test, just to confirm I was indeed pregnant... haha. I'm a doubter, clearly. I need the proof. Dr. Taggert called me back on Friday to tell me that my HCG levels are measuring at several weeks pregnant... so, I'm guessing I'm about 6 weeks along, which means you might be a Christmas baby!

That's pretty exciting. I'm gonna be a mom, THIS YEAR.

No. Way.

Dad Me!!!!

This is such a surreal post to write.

Your mom and I started writing this blog when you were just a hope and a dream. Today that hope and dream (you) is growing in your mom's belly right now.

I've thought about this day for so long. I always wondered how it would play out. Would it be this big extravagant reveal, or would it be a quiet celebration. Either way, I will never forget the way my heart felt when your mom showed me the test. I'll never forget the look on your moms face, even through the pure and utter panic and fear the beauty and radiance that I saw reminded me of the day we got married, or the day I asked her to marry me.

I can't believe that I'm going to be a dad.

My prayer for today is that I hope I can be the sliver of a dad that your grandpa is. His patience, persistence, heart, love for me and your aunties has helped to shape me into who I am today.

I can't wait to meet you!!!

May 1st, 2012

An update. Because I'm too lazy to be witty:

• Waiting for insurance to kick-in
• I get morning sickness at night
• I took my first "pregnancy picture" last night
• I'm so exhausted, I could fall asleep mid-conversation
• Need to get to the doctor. I need to find out how big you are!