Here We Go!

I've found some amazing websites online, but the best one I found was a website written by parents, dedicated to their little girl. They started writing it when they found out they were pregnant, and have kept it up for years.


I'm pretty sure I found this website before I was even married, and it was one of those websites that made me ache - in a good way. I spent a lot of time convincing myself that God's plan for me didn't involve marriage or children; not because I didn't want it, but because I was sure it was never going to happen. Defense mechanism: I thought that if I spoke of it as if it never would be, I wouldn't be destroyed if I never fell in love amd had a family of my own.


God knew all along what the plan was for my life, and luckily, I've grown up a lot in the last few years. I married my best friend, and I know, someday, we will have babies (sooner than later, if Paul had his way!).


SO, I am being proactive. I'm going to start this blog, for my family. For what is to come. It's pretty exciting. I don't know if I'll address "you" yet; maybe once I'm pregnant... but I'm not sure when exactly that will happen. :) In God's time.


We had an amazing day at church today; getting ready for Bold Men's Conference. Then, Paul and I went to pick up his phone from The Ram (he left it there last night), and Jessica met us out there. She and I had lunch while Paul went back to the church to set up.


Jess and I talked for a long time about RoundUp Media. It's so exciting to think, that someday, I may look back on this blog and laugh - remembering our conversations on this day... so much to look forward to, so much on the table, so much up in the air. We're in the process of making RoundUp happen; I'm nervous, but for good reason. Starting a business is hard work, but if it is God's plan for our lives, then this could be one of the best things I've ever done in my life (so far). All I want to do is write - it's what I'm good at, what I love... and "do something that you love to do, you'll never work a day in your life" comes to mind.


We watched Amelia tonight. She's a few weeks old, and didn't give us any trouble at all. It makes me completely anxious taking care of a baby, and all I could think about was... when it's mine. It's going to be surreal... I still feel like I'm fifteen, and having babies just seems like it should be lightyears away.


The season is changing right now; it's my favorite time of the year. We didn't have a great summer this year, but I don't mind - October is the best time of the year. It's when we got married! Yep... one whole year or marriage is almost complete! It makes me so happy, and so amazed - time flies. I remember when I was a kid, and I couldn't speed up the days if I tried. What I wouldn't give to watch life pass by that slow, again. Don't take it for granted... you're gonna miss this.